…That’s how long it’s been since Noah’s anaphylactic reaction to tasting peanut butter. Six months since I became a crazy allergy mom. Six months since the scariest day of my life.
Secondly, I get to educate other families and people about the world of food allergies, and that is something I love. I openly share our story, and our struggles because I want to bring attention to the topic of food allergies. Those without this struggle often times down play the severity, and don’t realize just how hard or scary it is. They don’t realize how prevalent it is becoming. So, when I can share tidbits with non-allergy families, I am happy to do so. I’m sure others get sick of hearing me talk about it, but the more I can reinforce in people’s mind the world of food allergies, the more aware they are bound to become.
I have also learned how much allergy free baking sucks. It’s terrible. But, I continue to do it because I want Noah to enjoy all the yummy things- cupcakes, cinnamon rolls, etc. I actually shed tears over cinnamon rolls last weekend. It was the first time I made them, and the dough was not what I was expecting. Now maybe it was because Noah got up too early, he was soo whiny, and I was frustrated from baking, or the combination of all three, but I had to excuse myself and cry for a minute. Thankfully my amazing sister in law stepped in and salvaged the dough, and we finished the “rolls”. It ended up more like pull apart monkey bread than actual rolls, but they tasted delicious. Everything I bake is just…different. The consistency is “off”. And it’s frustrating. I am sure with more experience it will get better- but right now it’s tough. And nothing crushes my soul more than working so hard on baking something and Noah not enjoying it. it is totally acceptable to cry when baking allergy free.
On the flip side, I’ve learned that allergy free cooking isn’t so bad!! It’s all about alternatives- using rice milk, vegan butter, etc. I’ve been living off of Cybele Pascal’s “Allergy Free and Easy Cooking” cookbook and seriously everything has been easy and delicious. I am still able to cook amazing meals for my whole family, just with making easy substitutions!
And while the last six months have been so incredibly challenging, and a huge learning experience, it hasn’t all be bad. I realized the importance of connecting with other “allergy moms.” Very few people can fully understand the life and stress of an allergy mom. But, finding a support group to connect with other like-minded people is SO helpful and cathartic. Throughout all of this, our family as a whole is so much stronger. David and I rely on each other so incredibly much to deal with all of this and we support each other with every decision. Also, my faith has grown stronger than ever these last six months. I’ve reminded myself that God gave me this child and this difficulty for a reason. We are able to financially support his allergies, and being so Type A, I am hyper aware to everything allergy related. God entrusted me to care for him, and that is so incredibly comforting.Having a child with life threatening allergies makes you focus on what’s important in life. I think David and I both are so much more patient with Noah and we don’t stress the small stuff nearly as much. We have much bigger fish to fry. Life is all about what you make it. So, when life gives you lemons, make lemonade. And rock awesome shades.